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StrongI have to smile.
I have to scream.
I have to be in denial,
Cuz If i'm not,
I'll cry.

I have to be strong,
For myself,
For everybody else.
When I'm weak,
Everybody else will lose me.

They can be weak.
Cuz I will stay strong.
They don't need to be.
I want them to stay happy.
I want them to stay safe.
I want to protect them from the world,
With all of my strength.

But I don't want to always be strong,
So I lean into the music,
The words,
The other worlds,
Where others are strong for me.
Where I can cry,
Be free from the pent-up wounds
Where I can dream of anybody,
And they'll be strong.
I hate being strong.

Sometimes

For just once...I wish I could force it into your head,
the fact that going around,
talking about me like I'm dead,
solves absolutely nothing.

Why can't you come right to me??
Say it to my face. Tell ME what you think.
Stop slinking around where I can't see,
trying to keep me from knowing.

How can you say you care
when you're too gutless to speak up?
I can see you there,
pretending nothing's wrong.

I just want you to come clean.
Just talk things out with me.
Let yourself be heard and seen,
and just tell me what's wrong.

Without MeThe sun will always shine
So will the moon and all the stars at night
The birds will still call
Dancing in ballrooms at incredible heights
In autumn, the leaves will turn
And inevitably fall
Spring flowers will bloom
Even if my life ends too soon
There will be other days
There will be other days
Winter will only mourn for summer rays
And oh, there will be other days
Without me

With the ColdI associate you with the cold.

I see you as the snowflakes resting on my eyelashes.
You're a delicate, soft weight on my cheeks
As my eyes flutter closed.
And then you're gone completely
Disappearing during the blink of an eye.
(It's not the first time.)

I relate you to the quiver of my lips
As I'm shivering on your doorstep while the snow blankets the earth.
You haven't been around in three days
And I'm worried that you're not okay.
But secretly, I know that you're fine
Because your lights are bleeding through the curtains.
(You never answered your door.)

I link you to the numbness in my body that starts in my fingertips,
And

I'm doneYou folded your lies
Between your honor
You thought justness
Would buy you time

But sand always falls
On the hour

You milked worth
Out of death
But grew impatient
With life

If only you lived
And stopped worrying
About the ending

You fumbled through
What would have been clearly seen
Had you stopped looking ahead

are fulli'd love to sink.
to dream,
to finally let

my

breath run out of me,
to let my lungs

shrink to stones and
shrivel
and then expand
again, expecting air-
but instead
they are

filled with blue
and
i drown, let
my head dip under
the surface,
to be full

of stillness

and calmness
and maybe then
i'll get to
sleep

The Vise on my HeartI feel so confused.
My heart has been abused,
conflicted, constricted.
It feels so over-used.

Broken up and dead within...
Uncomfortable in my own skin...
Why can't I sort things out?
I'm wearing myself so thin.

Drowning as I'm falling,
I feel the darkness calling.
Please send a bullet through my heart.
This pain is so appalling.

Send me help, ease my ache.
Let me rest before I break.
What should I do? I just don't know.
How much more pain must I take?

Someone, please, soothe my heart.
Forever ago did these pains start...
I just want freedom from these chains;
all they do is tear me apart.

Dear nightmares, let me go.
Sweet troubles, don'

Wasted YearsWhoever you're with and wherever you are
Inside your head or infinitely far
Despite all our distance
Despite all your fear
Always remember that I am still here.

Wherever you're going, whatever you've done
Broken a heart, or blacked out the sun
Despite all my hatred
Despite all your pain
Never forget that you drove me insane.

Whenever you're lonely, whenever you die
No matter how often you stop and ask why
Despite all the darkness
Despite all we've done
Always remember that I'm not the one.

Whoever you've loved and whoever you'll break,
Alone in the darkness when you lie awake
Despite twisted nightmares
Despite wasted years

Bow and Admit DefeatDo you know how dreams fade?
It starts with a train wreck
that you can't take your eyes from
and ends in a shipwreck
that is never again seen

My goal in life; is simply to be
I left my dead dreams behind,
but there are a few hangers on
and none left alive

Even IfThose smiles
That the reason is her,
I can see them,
Even if I close my eyes.

The stories
All about her,
I can hear them,
Even if I block my ears.

Your heart
Beating for her,
I can feel it,
Even if I pretend I didn't care.

Those tears
That came from her,
I will wipe them,
If you'll just lean on my shoulder.

Silent screamsShe hides behind her pretty smile
When shes surrounded by pain all the while
Suffering and dismay she never wanted it this way
Shes never forgotten what happened that cold day
Looking in the mirror as a tear falls from her eye
Cause she knows what shes looking at is a lie
That sweet little girl she use to be
Is drawning in a sea of misery
Black roses fill the air a heart full of despair
Eyes full of fear loved one no longer held dear
Silent screams of a heart that no longer heals
Broken shards of a love that she no longer feels
She comes from a place no one ever wants to be
A child surrounded by a broken family
Beside a bed watc

Dollhouse EarthShells, hollowed out minds -
brainwaves taken captive.
Where is my personality?

Thoughts reinvented, emotions
reprogrammed. I see through
my own reflection.
Face so familiar, but
Who am I?

Destroy, rebuild, wipe clean -
The archetecture of an artist,
or a mad man.
Genius deteriorating,
a frantic puppet-master
grasping for strings.
Children lost in a world of
their making.
We are dolls.

Chaos is always the punishment
for playing God.

Was it worth it?

Threats to be committedI reached out for help
And you stepped on me
Saying that if I needed to go to a support group
You'd commit me
Translation:
Shut up sweetie
Pretend you're normal
And smile like you're happy
Because life only gets harder

Min(d/e)Obsess

over sacred
words and symbols,
Perhaps discover a sign.

Help me escape from this hollow.
These thoughts and feelings aren't mine.

Manufactured

Injected

Planted

Into the space of my head.

Hidden in salt water droplets,
The words that may never be said.

Give me skin unpicked
And teeth that do not grind.
Grant me passage to elude torment

- The prison I've made of my mind.

What is mind?
What is mind?
What is brain?
What is brain?

Mutter psychologists
And the insane.

I can't decide.
There's nowhere to hide
Amongst the faceless drones.

Someti

Grieve and cryJust cry.

Don't let your fear get the best of you.

Cry.

I know it hurts, and you don't have to,

But hear me out,

Ive been through this, same as you
And while i don't know how you feel,
I will be there to help you

So i beg you now.
Don't hide the pain you feel.
Don't seal these emotions inside
Tears aren't a sign of weakness,
These kinds of thoughts will only harm you

I know you wish they could be here.
I know you want them next to you.

Its harder than you imagined,
losing someone you love
so don't hold the tears inside of you
but let them show your love.
laugh and dance,

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You Forget.

by ~therainontheirparade, Dec 10, 2012, 6:13:59 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Doors close and sometimes they don't open and you might be trapped in a dark room but that doesn't mean that there isn't any light outside It's a shame to see you go, I don't want to forget you But everything's forgotten in the end the feeling fades and soon you can't remember the day or the month or the year much less the moment. You forget, and that's humanity's tragic downfall. You forget. You forget. You forget. It won't be long now, it won't be long until you're gone but I'm begging you not to go Please don't go, please don't leave before it's started You're floating away and it's not fair, nothing about this is fair and my heart is shattering and splintering and I can't grasp the pieces quickly enough I can't gather them all But maybe a piece will get stuck with you and then you can take care of it from wherever you are (I hope it's nice there, please let it be nice.) so I guess that's okay It won't be long now, it won't be long until you're gone And I won't forget you I won't forget you. I won't forget. (Please don't let me forget. Please don't let me forget.) But that's humanity's tragic downfall. You forget. You forget. You forget.

You Forget.by ~therainontheirparade

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Emotional word vomit.

I don't even know what this categorizes as. Sorry.

love 1 1

~~joy 0 0~~

~~wow 0 0~~

~~mad 0 0~~

~~sad 0 0~~

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~ContaminatedLove Dec 11, 2012 Student General Artist

I love this one tooooo. ;w;
^{^{^{^{*Makes you me new lit. hero* | D}}}}

~therainontheirparade Dec 11, 2012

O: Thank you!

_{_{_{OH MY GOD I AM NOT WORTHY. PLS. OMG. TEARS.}}}

~ContaminatedLove Dec 11, 2012 Student General Artist

^{^{YOU ARE WORTHY. YOU GOT THIS BRO.}}

~therainontheirparade Dec 11, 2012

aw ;-;
Thank you dearie. c':

~ContaminatedLove Dec 11, 2012 Student General Artist

Welcome. eue

~mycatlikestuna Dec 10, 2012 Student

**Word vomit~*

Ha ha! that's fun to say. It makes me laugh. #)

~therainontheirparade Dec 11, 2012

Haha, I'm glad (':

~sleepyrie Dec 10, 2012

(second paragraph, did you accidentally not capitalise the 'it's?')

Your emotional word vomit is the complete opposite to me of real, actual vomit.
Not smelly and very well written. Good job~! <3

~therainontheirparade Dec 10, 2012

(OOPS THANK YOU!!)

Aw, thank you ;-;
Word vomit, to me, is sitting down and blindly writing without much thought, in a way. Like, you just write whatever's there.
At least that's what I do when I word vomit owo

But thank you. ;-;

~sleepyrie Dec 10, 2012

(It's okay haha)

True. I just get the first line of it stuck in my head and then I sit down and write it o3o

It's okay~~! C:

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